会いたいけど、会えない

i miss u.....

"Matchbook Romance - If All Else Fails"

A subdued silence undisturbed by the sound of her breath.
So carefully, brush her hair back from her eyes
In steady sequence, one by one.
She slips away.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go my heart remains with you.

And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my exsistance Is laying here in front of me.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go

And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I.
And if all else fails you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you.
I'll be the one by your side.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know,
My heart remains with you.

summer vacation (again)

Ini libur musim panas kedua di Jepang.
Udah hampir 2 minggu.
Minggu kemaren2 juga sibuk2nya cari part time-job,
tapi sekarang akhirnya dapet!

And today, is the first day for my baito :)
Agak2 nervous sih, tapi harus semangat.


Entah kenapa ya.
Setiap liburan musim panas, selalu aja ditinggal.
Liburan musim panas tahun lalu, ditinggal ke Singapore 1 bulan, seminggu setelah dia balik, putus.
Sekarang, ditinggal ke Hawaii, selama setahun.
Berdoa banget semoga bisa bertahan.

Anyway, gw juga masih punya banyak teman disini.
Juga punya teman yg di Indo(cuma beberapa sih) yang setia setiap saat. Senang ataupun sedih.
Apa sih arti teman? Teman yang kayak apa yang bener2 teman?
YA itu. Teman yang ada saat kita senang dan sedih. Teman yang bisa menghibur dan mengerti kita. Saling membantu. Teman yang ngga ngomong dibelakang atau muka dua.

Kalau keluarga?
Well, gw punya keluarga kok di Indo.
Cuma gw ngerasa sangat jauh. Contact2 aja jarang.
Well screw that. Mungkin emang gw ga punya keluarga bahagia kayak yang orang2 punya.
Gw kangen adik2 gw. Banget. Apa kabar mereka ya?

Yah.... gw cuma bisa menunggu!

Anyway, wish me luck for the first day of part time job :D

it's been long time...

Uda lama banget ga ngisi blog. hampir satu taun!

gatau tiba2 pengen ngisi blog aja...

Gila ya, emang dalam setaun tu bisa terjadi macem2.

Ganti pacar lah, pulang kampung lah, travel lah, dll.

Banyak banget yg trjadi dalam satu taun!

Sekarang bulan Juni,

beberapa hari menuju Indonesian Week 2010.

Hari dimana kita sibuk2nya latian sm rehearsal for the best result!

Mengesampingkan hal itu,

entah kenapa,

gw jadi merasa akhir2 ini gw sangat malas belajar

*apa emang dr dulu bgitu ya? :P

Tapi ya bgitu...

kenapa?

brasa ga punya dorongan...

yang lain?

belom punya rasa kalo belajar itu bener hal yg penting bagi ke depan nya gw!

ko bisa bgitu?

gw sndiri jg ga tau!

ARGH...

gimana sih caranya biar nafsu gw buat belajar bisa keluar?

help!!!!!!!!!!!!

apa yang harus kulakukan???

anyway,

ini jg lagi bulannya WORLD CUP 2010

twitter sm facebook org2

isinya itu semua.

this year, I root for ENGLAND, BRAZIL, and JAPAN!

*mgkn WC2010 dan semua dunia internet ini termasuk salah satu faktor gw jd males belajar -____-

Japan - new life

Yes, welcome to my new life in Japan.. ;)



Began with leaving my family and friends in Jakarta, Indonesia,




took off from Soekarno-Hatta Airport,


Then,
landed in Fukuoka Airport...




Next, headed to Beppu, where APU stands, where all of the new life in Japan begins....







It was Spring...
the end of March,
the winds blew so strong, so cold!
Yeah... me, the tropical-girl from Indonesia, which always face the heat of sun definitely not used to that kinda cold weather!
But, the great thing about Japan, and in Spring.
is the SAKURA... yeah, it was very beautiful,
because it's the first time I saw that thing.. i mean trees, flowers, named Sakura.. which is Cherry Blossom in English...
I couldn't say more. It was really really really beautiful.



In Beppu, APU, the Ritsumeikan Asia Pasific University is the place where I'm studying now..



it's a big university I think, and hi-tech!
LOL
*if it's Japan, everything's hi-tech!! :D



yeah... then, the dormitory, AP House...
it's a fun place! seriously, I met many new friends from different countries and cultures!



i love being in AP House :)

yet,
I live in share-room which means I have share-mate!
Mami Yoshimiya, a girl from Tokyo, she's very cute and nice....




Well, it's just a little bit about my early life in Japan...
I've already being here for 4 months, quite long but i'm enjoying it!

still have lotsa stories to tell...
but maybe later! :)

♥ Japan

merasa setengah hati untuk pergi

Oke..........
sekarang, gw uda tinggal menghitung hari !
とても早いですね。

じつは、sebenarnya...
gw sangat amat sangat excited untuk pergi ke 日本...
tapii ntah kenapa..
skrg gw merasa berat banget..
KENAPA??????????????
gw juga ga ngerti,
ga kebayang sih emang buat tinggal di luar negeri.
tapi toh gw juga uda punya temen dsna...
jadi ga trlalu berat lah mungkin buat survive disana.


hhhhhhhh....hal yg terberat
adalah ninggalin kehidupan gw disini.
ya mgkn kalo gw kuliah di kota2 yg masih deket dari Jakarta, kyk Bandung, Jogja, dll. not a big deal.
Gw bisa pulang dgn gampang.
Tapi ini, JEPANG!
Tiket pesawat one way aja bisa buat beli laptop, apa lg yg return..
bisa beli laptop yg bener2 canggih dah! haha



Rasanya pengen nangis..
tiap inget gw bakal ninggalin Jakarta........
ninggalin tmn2 gw, sahabat2 gw, org2 trdekat gw deh pokoknya, apalagi keluarga gw!
gw sayang mereka semua, dan gw harus jauh dari mereka?
Kenapa jalan hidup gw kayak gini yah?
Gw bukannya ga bersyukur sama Allah, gw sangat amat sangat alhamdulillah bgt bisa dkasih kesempatan untuk menimba ilmu di luar, di Jepang, di APU!
Sgt bersyukur..
cuma.............
gatau yah..
mungkin emang ini uda jalan yang dikasih sama Allah..
gw cuma bisa ngejalanin, berusaha, berdoa supaya smuanya lancar2 aja..
apalagi kuliah disana ga murah, living costnya mahal bgt.. ksian org tua gw..
Gw hrs bener2 berhasil, gw gamau ngecewain mereka..........



Yang pasti,
gw bakal kangen banget ama kehidupan gw di Jakarta, di Indonesia.
Bakal kangen banget sama org2 trdekat gw.
Ntah kapan gw bakal pulang, 1 thn? 1 stgh thn? 2 thn?
yg jelas pikirin belajar aja dulu deh.......
hhaha
wish me luck :)

lemotnya koneksi wifi internet di rumahku...

Yak...
ntah sudah hari ke brp wifi ini hadir di rumahku..
belum sebulan sih, cuma koneksinya sangat memuakkan!

lemotnya itu lhoo...
ga ketulungan deh..
yaaa gw sih sgt bersyukur ada wifi drumah gw..
tp kalo bgini keadaannya?????
man, males bgd ga sih nyeeeetttttttt...................



hhhh mudah2an aja
koneksinya bs menjd smakin bagus???????

2 months remaining...........

yeah,... 2 bulan lagi......
bener2 ga krasa... kyknya wkt itu baru aja dpt notification of acceptance...
tapi skrg uda bntr lagi berangkat...


ga kbayang aja ninggalin org2 yg gw syg....
jauh dr mreka...
hiks.. mau nangis hahahaa...
tp ya mau gmn lagi.......
emg itu uda pilihan gue..
hidup itu pilihan bukan??


hhhh........mudah2an aja org2 yg bakal gw tinggalin ga ngelupain gw...
yeah... I wish..... I hope... :)

baiklah.. mumpung msi dsini.. gw pgn ktmu tmn2 gw, ngumpul2 sm mreka , bersenda gurau, have fun, jalan2......
hahaha pkknya menghabiskan wkt sebaik2nya di Indonesia.. yg pastinya bkal sangat gw kangenin....

will totally miss u all guys....... :) :) :(

first post ! ;)

yeaah... right...
this, is my first post on this blog..

well, actually.. i was thinking about making my own blog couples of months ago,
but... yeah.. i made it today....

hahaha no problem , rite?

okay, maybe this blog will be the place to express my feeling from now on...


yoroshiku...